Celebrating?

I am hoping that this finds everyone pain free and getting ready to spend time with friends and family. I know that this is a time of year that we all look forward to. I just hope that we all can take a moment and take care of ourselves, and remember why we all celebrate.
I am not spending time with family again this year, (really can't say that I get to spend time with my husband everyday). I know that there are lots more people out there that just have a spouse or even more that have no one. Therefore I am thankful for all my love ones that can not be close over the holidays. As most of you know traveling for me is so hard, the pain is still way up there and I go to the bathroom at least every 20 minutes. So I have mailed out presents and cards to everyone. I am hoping that my body will allow me to go to church for Christmas Eve service. That would be my third time at this church, I really like the people there. Everyone seems so nice and not a single person has asked me why I get up 4 and 5 times durning service to go to the bathroom. I am so worried how I am going to answer that question when it comes up. I really don't feel comfortable telling people that I have IC yet, not sure if I ever will.
I got so bad news over the weekend, SSD sent me my letter. I was told that I am disabled, just not enough. They realize that I can't do a normal job, but think I could try alternative work. I don't know what alternative work is, not sure that there is a job that I can get up and go to the bathroom at least every 20 minutes, as often as every 8 minutes. Or maybe they know of a job that you can do in the bathroom while on the toilet. I guess this just means that I will have to reapply. I have a call into my lawyer, just hoping that he has some good ideas. This might mean that I will no longer have health insurance though. I have gone through all my savings, and now I will have to see about getting state aid. I have never had to ask for state help and I don't know how to go about doing that. Just one step at a time and I might need to just do baby steps.
Today a friend of my told me that she is going to quite her job and go to trucking school. I am a little jealous. I drove truck with my husband for 7.5 years and that was a time of my life that seemed a little easier. I sure hope that she has the time of her life. It will be a change of pace for her, but she will get to see as much of the US that she wants to. Best of luck and I will pray for you everyday.♥
I hope that everyone has the best time this Christmas, just remember that all of this is possible because God sent his only son to us. Merry Christmas

Holiday Baking

For Christmas this year I have decided to make holiday goodies and send them to my close friends and family. I can't afford to buy and send everyone something special so I thought this was I am putting the time instead of money in. I am having trouble with the pain and going to the bathroom but I just take extra breaks. What would of only taken a couple days before is taking more like a week maybe a little more. My husband is quality control since there are so many of the goodies that I can't have, I am sure it is a job anyone would apply for.

I was invited to a Christmas program last weekend, I had agreed to go and Saturday (the day of) I started into a flare up. But this lady had went out of her way to invite me so I took a pain pill and turned up my interstim and had her pick me up. I was glad that I went it was so interesting, they had recreated Bethelaham and they had you go through and pay taxes. The journey took you through a the Roman soilders it was great. Granted the pain wasn't good, but I had Sunday to lay around. While I was there she invited me to a ladies tea on Dec. 9th. I figured if I can get through that I would try going to the ladies tea. I would love to start going back to church. I know that going every week is probably not in the cards but I need to find a place that is a fit for me first. I am looking forward to turning up the interstim, drinking some hot water and meeting several new ladies.

I have not yet had any relief from the pain on my right side. I can touch my right bottom a little more without feeling like I want to hurt my own hand for touching it. But the pain is still there. I want to sleep on my right side again, I can sleep on my left side and some on my back but that is it. I go to the doctor on the 23rd I hope that it will be gone by then but if it isn't I am going to tell him then.

I hope that everyone is getting their holiday shopping and baking done. I am not doing the shopping thing, just the baking and not sure I could do both. Wishing everyone a painfree week. ♥