Shoulder to lean on

All of us that deal with the chronic pain day in and day out know what it is like for people to look at you different and even talk behind your back. I know that it doesn't help for good friends to tell you that it doesn't matter because it does. When you have gone through life doing as much as you want and wake up one day to find that you can only do little bits of things is hard. But then you have people that have known you for awhile telling others that you are faking all of your pain and just doing everything to get some attention. Wow, that is so correct we need attention but not that kind, we need people to hear us and relieze that we need a cure. We need doctors to hear us and they seem to turn their heads, they don't even what to know the truth. That is why so many of us have started growing a thick skin. When asked how we are we give a "I'm fine" we know that is what they want to hear. We try to tell ourselves that it will all go away and we will be better tomorrow, tomorrow comes and we aren't better and sometimes we are worse. I do have a wish and it isn't for anyone to feel my pain, I don't want anyone to go through what I go through daily. My wish is that people were excepting of us, that they saw us for the people we are and not the disease we are faking. No one can see our disease and no one can imagine the pain we are all in. The level of pain we are in on the day to day basis not the pain that comes with a flare up is not imaginable by anyone.
I understand the chronic pain and I want to be here for everyone that feels lost. We all need a friend and at times several. It takes an army to pull us through this and we need the outsiders to wake up and stop thinking so badly of someone because they don't understand. Who knows maybe they will be in our shoes someday, boy won't they look like a fool then.